The past week has been a lot to handle and I’ve been really allowing my frustration with my injury settle in and consume me. I have been entertaining way more self pity than I would like to admit. After doing my prescribed exercises Wednesday evening I dissolved into tears on the couch.
My physical practice for yoga is nonexistent because my range and strength are drastically reduced. I can’t even sit and meditate because I can’t sit cross-legged yet. Physical therapy is hard because I can’t bear all of my weight solely on my left leg and it hurts. There are so many “I can’t” statements that I have been making. The one I need to focus on right now is: I can’t let this injury absorb my being.
As I complained about not being able to practice yoga, my good friend reminded me that there is SO much more to yoga than asana. And you don’t need to sit cross-legged to meditate. And this is a great opportunity to really dive deeply into the non-physical practice of yoga. I was really feeling that way last week, but allowed myself to succumb to the negativity lately.
Today, I’m refocusing. When I find myself giving in to frustration, I am going to redirect and shine my energy on santosha (contentment). This niyama is about feeling at ease and at peace with yourself. Even when it’s most challenging, like when you are frustrated.
I am going to be mindful of my thoughts and channel the mantra om shanti, shanti, shanti when I find myself becoming negative. I am going to start reading the second book for YTT and immerse myself in the ancient wisdom. I am going to take my teacher’s advice and be gentle with myself.